i like 3 songs very much so i decided to share with u all loh !! the lyrics very meaningful..sort of describing my situation also loh !! they are ai qing yu wei by zhang xin zhe...gei ni zhen ge shi jie by zhang shan wei and gu dan ba lei by xu hui xin !! i like ai qing yu wei the most...gei ni zhen ge shi jie the second and gu dan ba lei the last...but all very nice !!! maybe not every part of the song is describing my situation but mostly ba...

here are some meaningful lyrics frm :

1.ai qing yu wei
wo ai ni de xin , ni zhe me ren xin dou qiao sui
gei ni de an wei..nan dao zhi shi wo de yi chang wu hui
gao shu wo ba...wo wu suo wei
liu guo de lei...qing qing de yu wei
ni ai guo de xin , yao wo zen yang cai neng huan de hui
ai qing de yu wei...yuan lai zhi shi wo de yi chang wu hui
ni dou shou hui...wo wu suo wei
suo you de bei shang you wo lai mian dui

2.gei ni zheng ge shi jie
wo yao gei ni zhen ge shi jie
ai hu ni shi wo yi ei zi de shi ye
wo mei you mai yuan
gei ni yi gei cai se shi jie
mei yi tian wo men kuai le den xiang nian
mei you ju li mei you zhong dian

3.gu dan ba lei
wo bu hui man man man man wang ji yi duan ai qing
huang...huang huang zhang zhang gen zhe shi jie xuan zhuan
ma ma fan fan tian tian hu xi luan xiang
wo bu yao wang mang mang mang mang gu yi qi pian zi ji
pin..pin pin fan fan hu lue wo de meng xiang
gu gu dan dan ye ye kan zhe yue guang
ban bu dao wei le ai qing kong zhuan

all the phrase above is i listen den write out de..so if got any part wrong den correct me..thanks !

[ivechanged]
*qi qing hen wei xian,suo yi yao yong gan,shi jian hui bang wo de mang !!!

back...!! so long nv blog le..busy la thats why !! i hate weekends lo...got nth to do at home except study den canot see her also !! kaoz..damn siian !! had mock exam today...took pictures using carlin and terence fone with my brothers...keith and john !! den also took with my member of parliament but one was absent today if not family photo liao !! the member of my parliament include terence chung hong abigail and geraldine !! for now..they are the ones who truly really noe me the best !! other than them...i guess no one else truly understand me le !! so happy that i got had them as a my frenz..last time wasnt really on good terms with them until this yr ba..and becoz we had something in common ba..FORUM...haha...so thats what brought the 5 of us together..!! whenever the 5 of us online...or smthings 3 or 4..we will definitely chat in grps and begin our hot topic !! haha...!! they are always there for me...even when im at the lowest point hor..they can make me laugh loh especially that chung hong !! haha...!! geraldine is a good pal whom i can easily and comfortably confide in..abigail is a fren who is willing to lend me a helping hand whenever im in trouble..terence is a gd bro that is there to pull me up when im down and chung hong is a joker who can make me laugh till cramp !! without anyone of them...the parliament would not be complete !!

yesterday had conference with them..everyone was present !! can also consider as one of the happiest chat i ever had ba..!! aiyah whenever got them sure happy de...!! they kept supporting me and told me everything will turn out fine..!! professor chung hong said something impressive...made me shock loh !! he said : a no frm a girl is never the end...it is the begining!! haha...makes sense ? meaningful ? definitely is !! dunno why like this phrase so much leh !! think of it..even if it does not makes sense but i still like it !! haha...!! plus...i realised one common phrase used..whether to console someone or to prove something..this phrase is commonly used ! they kept telling me..time will prove everything...well perhpahps not everything but most of it and the rest is up to my effort..!! will time really tell someone somthing somewhere someday ?!?

anyway...something quite sad happen today la..only some of my parliament noe loh !! hmm...got comment frm them la and hope it's true loh !! i will study de...!! dont worry !!

p.s will time really really prove my love for her ?!?!

[waiting]
`a no frm a girl is never the end..it is the beginning !!

back frm oral !!! aarggghh...did badly for it !! dont wanna talk about it le...anyway...today is a very special day but was disappointing..!! showed her the since the day post...she read halfway den return le...and told me to concentrate on studies first..!! yes i will concentrate but i will not give up on u as well...!! also did something silly today...during hist lesson...took my pencil and write all my feelings and thoughts down on the foolscap paper !! it was my first experience but no bad la..make me felt a bit better...but not very much la !! spent the whole of hist lesson doing it...wrote alot of things...whatever comes to my mind i just jot it down...now i read le..think of it..haha !! found it very silly...laugh at myself !! found out i actually got so many question marks in my mind de !!! hahahahahahaha....silly me !!

[heartbroken]
*pls dont avoid me...

since the day u treat me as your fren...since the day our friendship got better...since the day we talked alot...since the day i walked to interchange with u...since the day u teased me...since the day u laugh at my jokes...since the day u replied my sms...since the day u accepted my cd...since the day u told me the cd was nice...since the day i went out with u on sunday...since the day i know u...since the day we watch movie together...since the day we talked on phone...since the day u asked me for opinion...since the day u ask me why didnt i perform on national day...since the day u smiled at me...since the day we start bickering with each other...since the day of secondary sch...since the day we be frenz...since the day u were concerned that i didht had my lunch...since the day i sat beside u...since the day u care for me...since the day u waited for bus with me...since the day we played basketball together...since the day i taught u basketball...since the day i made origami flower and heart for u...since the day we celebrated your bday...since the day u accepted my bday gift..since the day u accept the toro book i bought for u...since the day u told me the book was well kept...since the day we did charity work together...since the day u made my day...since the day we took photo together...since the day u were willing to listen to my mp3...since the day we went chinese garden together...since the day we played together...since the day u said your first hello me...since the day u said your first bye to me...since the day u taught me how to do maths...since the day u ask me how i think of u...since the day u told me about how u think of me...since the day u confided in me...since the day u were willing to let me help u with your problems...since the day u said thanks to me..since the day u remembered my bday...since the day u bought my gift for my bday...since the day u told me u were afraid i didnt like your present..since the day u told me i look nice in your pouch...since the day u told me u actually wanted to buy pink giodarno shirt for me...since the day u noe i like pink colour giodarno shirt...since the day we went tp together...since the day we met at pasir ris mrt to go orchard..since the day u took the initiative to talk to me...since the day u asked me to tag along with u...since the day u made me not felt left out...since the day u asked if i wanna eat ice-cream...since the day u told me to burn yida songs for u...since the day u told me not to rush to burn your cd...since the day u stepped into my life...since the day we became close frenz...since the day u conmplained to me about anything...since the day u allowed me to whisper near your face..since the day u allowed me to stand beside u when taking photo...since the day u allowed me to take your plastic bag for u...since the day u told me the question's answer...since the day we did group work together...since the day u wish me gd luck for my exam...since the day u gave me tissue without me asking...since the day i look at u...since the day i dreamt of u...since the day u were willing to share with me half the vcd..since the day u stand next to me..since the day u called out my name...since the day u talked about me among your frenz...since the day u laugh at my silliness for washing contact lense with detergent...since the day u forgive me...since the day u praise me...since the day i called u hamasaki...since the day we had at orchard...since the day we talked alot in the mrt...since the day i waited for u...since the day u didnt mind me waiting for u..since the day u was not angry with me for insisting to wait for u...since the day we stood beside each other at the escalator...since the day showed me a smiley face when u replied my sms..since the day u ask if i really wanted u to buy toast for me...since the day u were not angry with me for disturbing your slp and teach me maths instead...since the day u looked at me..since the day u shared your point of view with me..since the day u said that tkd was playing cheat...since the day u talked to me when i was being left out...since the day that many more things have happened...i always believe that we have a chance of being together !!! i always do...

[sincetheday]
*will we still sit next to each other very geo lesson !?!?

im back !! wonder why im back...so fast ?!?! haiiz..missed my blog !! anyway..cried in class today...most throw face thing is hor i cry beside her leh !! so shameful !! i wanted to talk to her but just couldnt stop myself frm crying...haiiz !! but i felt much better after crying out rather than keeping it in my heart..well..think i scare most of my frenz..coz they was like...huh jesper cry ?!?! what the hell happen sia ?!! haha...for frenz who were concerned..sorry about that and i really appreciate that u all were there for me...thanks !!

[sobsob]
*when wil u ever hear the cries of fmy heart...

im going to stop blogging for a few days !! im very depressed over something...so sorry i couldnt have it with those who are concern about me...i really cant say it out..dont ask me abt it also !! just now im really very sad...

for those who are consistent reader of my blog..im sorry that i have to stop blogging..!! i hope i will be back to blog also...but have to wait till i picked up my mood again...haiiz !!

[terriblyupset]
*this is a very risky investment...

yea...wake up liao !! haha...finally..!! so tired sia ! early in the morning hor i stomachache liao went toilet but no shiit !! stupiid wan loh !! hmm...feel like sms-ing her but dont know say what topic !!! haiiz..what is happening ?!? is it a gd sign or bad ?!? although can see her from mon to sat but this weekend it feels like...months nv see her liao !! wa lao...siian leh !! i want to see her !!! erm...the idea of asking her out to study together hor is still stirring in my head leh...dunno shld ask her out to study not..dunno she want not !! if she want..most prob will study geo or maths..haiiz !! tell u hor..even if she go her hse downstair the minimart buy thing ask me go i also go wan !! crazy hor...aarrgghhh !!! mad liao la...

[heartaches]
*nv felt so hurt in my life...

hmm...last time i have a dream which is to play for a basketball club !! but find very long also dont have so gave up hope...den play bball aimlessly !! BUT now...everything is going to be different !! ive got an aim..a target...which is HOME UNITED !! weiiz...dont wu hui..not soccer de but basketball de !! it's a very well organised team lo...heard not quite easy to get in den training also very tough...but GOOD...i like !! the more tough the more i like...!! haha...!! alot people say canot tahan wan...i dont believe...i what nv tahan before...sure can de !! have faith !! i actually wanna go trial now...but got o level !! shiit wan lo !! must wait till o finish den can go...but also bo bao i will get in la...but they say is unlimited tries de !! if fail hor..i go personal training den go back again...try until i can enter the team !! it's my dream loh !! i finally can fulfil my dream le !! i really want to play for the club....arrgghh....cant wait to go see the training and see how gd those players are !! heard the training ground at toa payoh...nvm...far is not a prb !! as long as got the PASSION can le...haha !! love the GAME !! ill work hard for it...frm now on..i will play serious in every game and try to improve myself !!! for my dream...im willing to sacriface anything except HER la..haha !! im willing to sacriface my youth...time...and...erm...dunno la !! all i noe is this is what i play bball for...this is what i always wanted...this is what iver always been waiting for..this is my dream..my wish..my hope...my desire...my world...my life !!! HOME UNITED GOGOGO !!
pls remember to leave a vacancy for me...ill be there right after o levels....wahahahahaha

[waitforme]
*but still...SHE is still as imp to me...i miss u...

yea...today went west plaza to play bball again !! very little people only leh...ray nv come down !! heard he went east coast to work...how can ?!?! i once a week come down leh...nv give me face !! haha jk laz..!! starting very siian leh...got this guy name A...he hor play until very fucked up..!! everybody play until so serious hor..he joke here joke there..den he very lousy wan lo but like to say other people here and there !! i hate playing with these kind of people leh...know how to tok only but dunno how to play !! play with philippine he also not serious...actually tot of asking jac to sub him but i dunno how to kai kou so in the end also didnt !! den we won phillipine hor..he nv contribute anything also den laugh at others..yaya papaya !! sai wan loh !! den got one match steven nv play den he slack like hell...make us lose loh !! only noe how to shoot and miss but nv gets rebound !!! lose liao say steven too good dont have him will die..cock wan loh !! is he lousy he sabo us lose de !! he stay there he anyhow play his problem la..but i stay tam..come down every once a week...expect to play so challenging and serious game !! but he spoil everything !! haiiz...today is a wasted trip !! all thanks to him...

[zhokdulan]
*all i wanted was to be the one u choose to carry on your life with...

today whole day nv talk to her leh...nv even sms her !!! feels so terrible..!! morning go sch for mock exam..finish le also nv say bye to her..actually can walk with her de..but hor i thinking od the maths question so i wasted a chance to walk with her or maybe even send her home !! damn it !! but in the end went to watch twins effect2 with john edwina and sabrina !! nice la...!! nv sms her leh..dunno why...sort of control myself frm sms-ing her !! dunno why also...thinking whether what her fren say is true not..? that she dont like people to keep sms-ing her ? BUT winna got a point also..handphone dont sms and call...den for what ?!!? haha !! hmm...die la...shldnt have controlled myself coz now hor canot stop liao !! miss like crazy...aarrgghh !!! feel like asking her out to study tml...but dunno she want not ?!!? even if she want..also dunno study what !! haha...funny hor !! anyway i dont think she dare go out with me to study de la...i mean just me and her la...she sure dont dare de !! confirm chop chop...haha !!

[waiting]
*the song by the name ai ying yu wei is nice !! suits me alot...

wa lao...very shiit wan leh !! i type very long liao hor den i publish post my com say page canot be displayed !! what the fish !! haiyo..lazy to retype liao la !! haha...stupiid idiot !! today nv tok to her..not even hello and bye..wasted like hell !! gonna miss her like crazy..going asylum later..coz sure go crazy de !! haha blez !! at nite going to play bball le...yyiiipppee !! go study le...

[seriouslovesick]
*have u ever miss me...even for a sec ?!?!

hey im back !! wonder why i always post msg here ? coz hor there is no one there for me to tok to about HER..those that can talk to me hor..either got stead la..or want to study den no time for me !! i dunno who to find also...so hor..blog is the best !! write in blog hor...can make me feel better...at least there is someplace to confide in..den hor always no reply de..so i can say anyting i want !! haha !! hmm...anyway u noe hor..the only time i can stop thinking about HER is when i play basketball...but not with those lousy wan laz..haha..must with my 760 frenz !! play with them hor...can make me temporary stop missing her..but when i take a break..ill start missing her again..so in order to stop missing her i must keep engaging in game but den also not possible wan ma..unless i keep winning la..!! now i think the best confider is my blogspot liao !! haha...siian wan leh..want to find someone to talk actually is very easy wan but find someone who can talk to me about HER..hmm...difficult liao...all those that can hor...always no time for me...hmmppf !!! who can i find ne ?!?! i want to find HER to talk...but dont disturb her la..let her study !! canot always call her also...later she got irritated den i DIE !! can only mo mo den pray for her...hope she do well for chinese and get a2 !! who is free ?!?! lalalalala...im bored !!!!

[feelingsobored]
*miss u like crazy especially during weekends...

hmm...dunno why hor..the more i think of it the more i want to talk to her and clear my name !! haiiz !! anyway...frm what i heard frm hohoho...erm...felt much better la...coz she an wei me loh !! haha...so gd !! she talked to me very long leh..coz i dunno who to find le..stead de pei stead...want to study de study...tuition de tuition...want to slp de slp...but lucky still got hohoho to talk to me...haha !! well...starting to think about it..does she really consider me as her close frenz so she treat me like this ? does she consider me as someone closer to her so she treated me like this ? why am i treated differently ? i want to know why !!! does it show that im consider as a better fren den the others ? or does it show that she dont like me and wanted to get rid of me ? does it show that she noe i die die also wun du lan her so she is out to shoot me ? why does she trea me hu leng hu re ( sometimes cold sometimes 'hot' ) ? is something or SOMEONE affecting her ? does it show someone is out to destroy our friendship ? does it mean that she is feeling pressurised by someone ? is someone pressuring her not to befren with me ? is she giving up our frenship coz of her fren ? i got so many qns to ask loh..but i cant think of it..coz too many le..anyway also have to go buy dinner le..gtg..take care folks..ill continue if i have time later !!

[question-aire]
*when can we clear doubts we have for each other ?

for the one i hated the most :

hmm...got to know that u have been staring at her when she walked pass u...i dont find it surprising coz i noe u have a habit of staring at people !! and also..u like to hide at one corner and look at her..!! can u pls stop all these...?!!? stare at her for what ?!!? she feel very irritated u noe..its like...very weird loh..why u walk pass her must stare at her..kaoz !! dont deny...u have the HABIT of staring at others...u told me before u had this habit..so better dont deny..!! i just hope that..u would not stare at her when she walk pass u...whats the point ?!?! people walk pass u stare at u u happy not..u feel easy not ? think la !! pls put a stop to this..it's very childish...!! dont STARE at her anymore...please STOP !!

[puzzled]
*i dont get it..what are your intentions ?!?!

hmm...think ive cleared quite a number of misunderstandings with her le but still got one thing haven clear my name only !! haiiz...got to know alot alot of things today !! i got to know that she doesnt blame me totally for the incident but she still sort of angry with me coz she said thay if i noe this wud happen i shldnt have stick to her when lalala...haha...dunno can say out not...!! actualy i dunno if can say out not leh...but i feel like sharing out coz i feel so uneasy keeping it in my heart !! hmm...no matter what hor..my frenz have been telling me..aiyah can de la got chance de la..can de can de..have confidence !! BUT hor...i dont know leh..if really can den is the best la BUT those can also be just some excuse to make me happy for the moment..some excuse to make me run away frm facing the problem !! den hor..she talk to me hor..very diff frm other boy..and now den i realised it's ONLY me...she tok to other people so wen rou de..but to me she so straightforward..hmm...if look at diff point of view..actually got bad and good point la...i hope it is the good one...!! i really wish to clear my name..i dont wan her to hate me or get angry with me lo !! actually she treat me very well de but just dont know why...sometimes...it's just so different..!! i dunno how to tell u all also...but its likeshe is the middle girl ba..den pressure frm studies and frenz...maybe she feeling very xin ku ma..hmm who knows ?!?! whenever her fren is ard me..she will be cold towards me but whenever she isnt..she will be nice...hmm...got alot of thing very mystery la..find mystery case...alot of thing hor very suspicious..hmm...tried my best not to think about it..well..i hope this weekend will be a gd break for me to ponder over it...hope something gd will happen...

[findthingsweird]
*if u ever met with any problem..u can always approach me !!

yawn...!! just wake up only...so tired today !! hmm..today hor purposely go sch late leh..6.30 liao hor my mother asked if i need to go sch den i told her need la but first 3 period also nv study..let me slp longer la...6.50 den wake up..haha !! took own sweet time to bath and make my hair..7+ den left home...dilly dally..haha !! outside sch hor..i saw sundrum still there..what the hell man...i purposely come late is to avoid him..den dunno why today after everyone go back class le he still there..so i decided to go minimart and buy curry puff..slowly enjoy my breakfast !! finish liao den slowly walked in..tot nothing would happen until mr quek call me..wa lao...suay leh !! he told me went office to get the late form..went in..stood around and acted blur..sundrum asked me was i late ? immediately i said NO la...haha !! den walk out of office liao...scott free !! wahahaha !!! went to 4n class den hor saw sam inside i nv go in..i go another round den go back my class sit for a while..bi bi feng tou..haha !! went down half an hr later..told the teacher i had stomacache..haha stupiid sia..like that also believe me..blez !! next..we had fun in our SNGAPORE IDOL'S lesson...haha...she went in only we tease her liao..bet she regret taking part in sg idol..haha !! she told us her experience that day...seems interesting..haha !! den hor..before she left..she sang what she performed that day loh..wa..listen liao hor...i wanna noe the judges address liao..go burn their house !!!! why nv choose tracy ?!!? SHE SING GOOD LOH !!! stupiid wan leh...tracy sing really very nice...just dunno what the stupiid judges are thinking...haha !! go burn their hse la..!! den last of all...mt..si bei siian !! i dont understand why leh..a2 also wanna retake..hmm..make the class atmosphere so tense..just siian !! for afternoon lesson hor...so fun leh..we were late loh..purposely de !! we went central to see doctor with my frenz..reach central at 1pm..den slowly walk here and there..den take our own sweet time...after seeing doctor..we took out bloody own sweet time again to have lunch..den tok cock..shake leg !! haha..den still go buy bubble tea and drink..dilli derlli..so song !! walked to sch that time..we hide under banner den keep calling out 'HO !! HO !! HO !!' haha...too bad she nv hear...!! stroll to canteen den walk slowly to lab..was outside for quite sometime before we knocked on the door..haha !! damn funny !! sch quite fun la...but nv really tok to her..haiiz..waste another day...

[hateweekends]
*one day i hope u will miss me the way im missing u now

ok this post hor is my people who tag at my board...

hmm...recently alot of things happen la..alot people tag at my blog..concerning jean's fren de matter..true im really angry at her..but ive stop calling her names le..!! so i beg..frenz of mine..u all also stop le k..i mean..we scold them...they scold us..den when is this thing going to end ? en en yuan yuan he shi liao ?!?! so why not everyone just stop scolding each other..and let this thing come to an end..? i know i kept calling her names in the past..but that was the past...now as long as she dont interfere in my life i wont interefer in hers..as long as she dont interfere in my frenz life..i wont interfere in hers !!

for jean's fren : last time i scold u or what...hurt u or what..ok i say sorry here but this sorry doesnt mean anything..it just an apologies for calling u names but dont misunderstood..i still cant forgive u..the reason why im willing to put a stop to everything is becoz of ur fren..jean...i think u shld really thank her..she has been coming her consistently and making peace..helping u solve things with me..u shld be lucky that u have a fren like her..!! u want to zhu fu me and her..fine..thanks !! but i really hope u noe where u were wrong in the past and make sure u dont repeat it again becoz now she is irritated with me as she tot that it was me who got her involved in our matter...u dont have to do anything to help me out..just leave me alone and i will try to solve thes thing myself...i will be greatly appreciative if u just stop sms-ing me...thanks !!

to jean : thanks for being the peace maker..tot u didnt want to say out ur name...why in the end still say ?!! haha..felt like being frenz with u..if dont wan nvm la..!! maybe we 2 not fated to be frenz la..haha !! but if u are willing den u add me in msn loh...my email add is at the side..!! by the way..i dont know who the new anonymous is..i dunno how to stop..i really dont...can swear loh..if not i wont be accepted by my dream girl..serious enuff ?!!? haha...anyway really have to thank u...

back to everybody : i really hope i have made myself clear..previously got one anonymous already stopped le..now i dont wan another anonymous to come and make things bad for everyone..u all can feel free to tag your feelings about my post..give feedbacks on my blog..but pls dont make it a place for verbal war...it does not benefit anyone here..thank you very much !!

[troubledboy]
*hope this thing will be put to a stop

haiiz..sch today...siian again !! bad mood early in the morning..gave a 'everyone offended me' face !! but luckily chung hong terence and geri cheered me up in hall when we were waiting for our chinese o level results !! well..not bad la..got a2 !! dont plan to retake..haha !! today hor..never really talk to her leh..got this feeling she angry with me..but dont know over what only !! i only managed to talk to her after sch while we were having out mock exam in class..just asked if she could lend me her staple only...den while waiting for xw...asked if she wanna listen to the eng disc i burn for geri..best want ok !!! very very nice hor !! walked to white sand in quite a big grp..played soccer half way...and was talking about eugene being a CAMPER when he play cs..haha !! damn fed up leh tok to him...my blood can boil sia !! so i told him to talk to my hand coz the face wun listen !! haha...copy my fren phrase de !! blez !!

anyway my thoughts were proved to be wrong..called her to ask if she was going to retake her chinese..advice her not to retake coz it's like..waste of time ma..why not spent in on other subjects and score better..but she still wanna retake..so i can ony wish the best for her !! hope she will approach me if she got any prbs..im be more den willing to help her out !! i even found out actually she not angry with me...phew !! told to to take gd care of herself..but she was like gone silent...why ?!?! normal ma...frenz concern for each other normal ma..dunno why she went silent..haha !! i got to know something leh..frm so many conversation i had with her..i think i can deduct something..but not very sure !! den hor..got one thing very funny..before she got to the fone..someone said something...haha..how i wish it was true !! wanna noe ?!!? NO WAY !! haha..secret !! finally i managed to get my mood back for studies...!!

i really hope that im thinking too much and was being over-sensitive and everything that i tot of was wrong !! very wrong !! anyway..alot of people say they were touched by my 'since the day' post..blez !! weiiz..i spent one hr on it leh !! dont pray pray hor..haha !!

just for YOU : i cant stop u frm retaking chinese la..coz afterall it's your decision ma..also your parents decision but all i can do now is to support u loh..if u ever need any help or u encounter any problem...feel free to look for me la...i go up mountain go down sea sure help u de !! and hor..sick must see doctor..dont ying lai..kei da ke xiao leh..dont play play hor..!! pls take very good care of yourself..drink more water and sleep early..dont create so much stress for yourself !! just remember..im always there for you !! gambatte...

[relieved]
*disappointed that i didnt get to sit with u today during GEO...

since the day u treat me as your fren...since the day our friendship got better...since the day we talked alot...since the day i walked to interchange with u...since the day u teased me...since the day u laugh at my jokes...since the day u replied my sms...since the day u accepted my cd...since the day u told me the cd was nice...since the day i went out with u on sunday...since the day i know u...since the day we watch movie together...since the day we talked on phone...since the day u asked me for opinion...since the day u ask me why didnt i perform on national day...since the day u smiled at me...since the day we start bickering with each other...since the day of secondary sch...since the day we be frenz...since the day u were concerned that i didht had my lunch...since the day i sat beside u...since the day u care for me...since the day u waited for bus with me...since the day we played basketball together...since the day i taught u basketball...since the day i made origami flower and heart for u...since the day we celebrated your bday...since the day u accepted my bday gift..since the day u accept the toro book i bought for u...since the day u told me the book was well kept...since the day we did charity work together...since the day u made my day...since the day we took photo together...since the day u were willing to listen to my mp3...since the day we went chinese garden together...since the day we played together...since the day u said your first hello me...since the day u said your first bye to me...since the day u taught me how to do maths...since the day u ask me how i think of u...since the day u told me about how u think of me...since the day u confided in me...since the day u were willing to let me help u with your problems...since the day u said thanks to me..since the day u remembered my bday...since the day u bought my gift for my bday...since the day u told me u were afraid i didnt like your present..since the day u told me i look nice in your pouch...since the day u told me u actually wanted to buy pink giodarno shirt for me...since the day u noe i like pink colour giodarno shirt...since the day we went tp together...since the day we met at pasir ris mrt to go orchard..since the day u took the initiative to talk to me...since the day u asked me to tag along with u...since the day u made me not felt left out...since the day u asked if i wanna eat ice-cream...since the day u told me to burn yida songs for u...since the day u told me not to rush to burn your cd...since the day u stepped into my life...since the day we became close frenz...since the day u conmplained to me about anything...since the day u allowed me to whisper near your face..since the day u allowed me to stand beside u when taking photo...since the day u allowed me to take your plastic bag for u...since the day u told me the question's answer...since the day we did group work together...since the day u wish me gd luck for my exam...since the day u gave me tissue without me asking...since the day i look at u...since the day i dreamt of u...since the day u were willing to share with me half the vcd..since the day u stand next to me..since the day u called out my name...since the day u talked about me among your frenz...since the day u laugh at my silliness for washing contact lense with detergent...since the day u forgive me...since the day u praise me...since the day i called u hamasaki...since the day we had at orchard...since the day we talked alot in the mrt...since the day i waited for u...since the day u didnt mind me waiting for u..since the day u was not angry with me for insisting to wait for u...since the day we stood beside each other at the escalator...since the day showed me a smiley face when u replied my sms..since the day u ask if i really wanted u to buy toast for me...since the day u were not angry with me for disturbing your slp and teach me maths instead...since the day u looked at me..since the day u shared your point of view with me..since the day u said that tkd was playing cheat...since the day u talked to me when i was being left out...since the day that many more things have happened...i always believe that we have a chance of being together !!! i always do...

[sincetheday]
*will we still sit next to each other very geo lesson !?!?

u are a very nice and pleasant girl !! ure sweet and caring...!! u pretty and clever !! ure da girl of my dream !! ure everything to me !! ure my life !! if one day u wud come and ask me which is more important ? u or my life ?!?! i wud tell u it's my life..becoz your are my life !! u are what i look forward in going sch for...u are what i cary on bringing smile to others for...u are what i need to carry on being happy...without u in my life...i really dunno what to do !!!

just finish showering...had this qn stirring in my mind..i really wish to know the answer...im wondering the way u treat me on sunday...with real care and patience..does it come frm the bottom of your heart or is it becoz u pity me that i was the only boy there ?!?! if u pity me coz im the only boy there..well...nth to say but if it comes frm the bottom of your heart..it shows that im not just an ordinary fren to u ba..coz u really did care and concern alot for me that day...!! i really wish to know the answer...but guess im dreamng again coz ull nv come to my blog..haiiz !! but i hope...the answer is...u treat me nice frm the bottom of your heart...

[upset.like.never.brefore]
*my love for u is not as simple as u think...

i always wanted to find someone to talk to but who is there ?!? wanted to find my 760 frenz but they dunno anything abt what's happening in sch..tell them also no use although i noe they will be most willing to help !! wanted to tell my sch brothers..also no use !! telling xw is the same as talking to the wall..created alot of trouble for winna and keith about that bitc* incident le..dont wan mafan him again...john busy pei-ing his stead..always no time..he cant help much also...!! spent most of his time with his precious daughters and stead...!! there is one for me...but she is...how to say...hard to contact...she seldom come nline also..den she very busy !! dont want to disturb her !! who else ?!!? my family ?!?! nah !! no thanks !! they wont understand...they nv will...all they do is listen and nod their heads..no comment at all..so whats the point telling them ?!!? wanted to confide in HER but...she always not free also..scared she find me irritating or what...scared this and that...although i really really wanna confide in her...but does she wan to be my listener ?!?!

[nvendingfeeling]
*will u give me and urself a chance ?

are her words reliable !? can she be trusted ?!! is she up to no good ?!?! haiiz..!! found out alot of things today...!! if YOU ( her fren ) ever come across my blog again and read the post i wrote for u...u will realise how much i gave in to u !! how much i have been forgiving and forget !! how much i wanted to be a fren ?!! maybe we are just not fated to be frenz la..but dont be frenz is one thing..why cant u just leave me alone..and let me pursue my own dreams instead of trying to stop me !!! i dont get u loh !!! where have i offended u ?!! everytime i get angry with u..i will tel myself u are her fren..canot angry canot angry...so difficult u noe !!! u ask my frenz la...haven i give in enuff ?!?! those words that u said..made me half believe...but i wont give up until the day i heard those things frm her..out frm her mouth..even if she does..i might not be giving up !! why ?!?! im just followong where my heart wants me to go...might sound stubborn but thats me !!!

k now abt the jasmine thingy..guess i have to make it clear !! it's NOT me who get her involved de loh !! it's HER !!! NOT ME !! the moment i know SHE got her involve..the first thing i did was to get her out of the matter !! dont believe u can ask around !! i really did loh !! i noe me and HER thing does not concern lm BUT get it clear k...it's NOT ME WHO GET HER INVOLVED !! IT'S NOT ME WHO PULL HER DOWN THE WATER !! IT'S HER !!! NOT ME !!

to the one that misuderstood : i really hope u are not angry with me !! u got to believe me ! it's not me !! it's her...u can ask around if u dont believe me...ask those cg people...can ask carlin also !!! i nv wanted u to get involved in my matter with my x. stead but i really hope u can understand...i noe u are irritated coz u tot i was the one who got u involved but i say again...it's really not me !!! dunno where u got the info frm..but all i can say is...it's really not me !! hope u will believe me..the only proof is u goard asking..especially cg people...they will noe !!! haiiz why am i repeating all these and emphasising that im not the one..whats the point ? u nv get to see this also...haiiz !! but i really want u to noe it's not me !! i wanted to explain to u but how ? will u give me time to explain ? i want to explain but SHE is always there ...dont even get the chance to explain anything to u !! why am i so concerned over this issue...?? becoz what u think is very imp to me !! any other person's comment is nth to me...but yours..im really concern on how u think of me !!

for the one who created all these trouble : u happy now ?!?! now that the thing has spread to her..she angry with me..im sad..im down..u happy !! bet u are !!! bitc* !!! i hate u !!!! now that she is angry with me...u accomplish ur mission le la !! god damn it...hope u get run over by a car !! u son of a gun !! dont ever let me see u ...u bloody stinky old hag !! iver expected this day to come...just didnt expect it would be so fast...u noe what..i feel like smacking the hell out of u !! lucky u not boy...if not ling bei make sure u go hosp. !! i regret knowing u !!! worst x i ever have...how i wish i could go burn ur damn bloody hse right now !!

back to the crowd : i really am at loss now !! i just shouted at my bro who was concern abt me...really sorry !! i just got no mood for anything else now...just feel like gazing into the space and do nothing or the best is slp forever !! i feel that what she said might be part of her plan that try to stop us frm being together..but lets take it that it's the truth...i dont think i can take it loh !!! now we are progressing...i guess...yet u come and spoil everything and put me back to square one !!! i had abit achievement only...den u come make things worst !! do u enjoy doing all these ?!! if u are u must be sick !!! everyone has got one chance and all im asking is just one chance yet u dont even want to let me have this chance...!! sometimes i really hope u nv even exist..!! u said u dont like me as day passes..den still tok to me for what !! i susally will feel better after blogging but today the more i blog the more terible i feel !!! i got so many things to say but i just cant let it out...just now when walking to white sand..was keeping a dist frm her coz i tot she might me angry with me for shouting at her fren...wanted to pei her walk to interchance knowing she is alone but didnt coz i couldnt bring myself to do so !! something just stopped me !! i really hope one day in ur dreams...my blog appear and u got to see whatever i wrote and let u understand how the hell i felt and all the foolish things that i ever done for u just to see u smile...just a smile !! if u dont like people to sms u...fine...i wun !! but will u remember me ? will our frenship be pull apart ? i dont wan all these to happen...i nv felt like this before !! tml will be getting back o level resutl..was quite excited about it..but now..dont even wanna bother abt it...pass fail heckcare la...the most imp is whether u will forgive me not and whether u noe that it's really not me who got u involved !! i once told u our frenship means alot to me..i remember i did and it's really true and i can swear...if i ever lie that i dont reasure our frenship will be strike by lightning and run over by car !!! i really cherish and treasure our frenship...!! do u ?!!? im also facing competition frm other boys which made me more woried in losing the chance of being together with u !! if one day someone is to tell u all that ive done for u i dont think it can be finished in one day...u might not be touched by what i do for u..but at least...thats the most foolish and silly thig i ever done for a girl just to make the girl smile !! i dont know my way of approach is correct or wrong but all i noe i is i really love u !! love can be nurtured...why cant u give me and yourself a chance to let this frenship sparkle off to become a love relationshiip ?!?! why cant u give me and yourself a chance to try out this 'everybody say impossible' relationship ?!?! why cant u give me and yourself a chance to make each other life's more meaningful ?!!? somehow i got this feeling that w have the chance but sometimes the way u are treating me is like...u dont wan to noe me as a fren like that ...maybe im over sensitive la..but...haiiz !!! feeling very depressed now lohz...!! im glad u like the same foto as me...but whats the point ?!?! i always tot we had something in common..but now..come to think of it...do we ?!?! i noe u like art and i suck at those...but diff liking people can also get together de ma...why wun u just let this love be nurtured ?!!? i believe if u are willing to do..it definitely will turn out well..yes im sure it will !! i give u my word !!! we were still having great time on sunday while shopping with the japs...remembered u know i was the only boy..u talked to me..asked me along whenever u go and stuff !! everything was great but now...what happen ?!!? just becoz of some rumours u heard or some incomplete storys...u angry with me ? i dont blame u la..but like what i say...other people misunderstand me nvm..but not u !!! u can ask my frenz how crazy i am over u...i really am !! although some of my frenz said u were just ordianry..but no !! i find that u are very special...i dunno wad really attracted me but all i noe is im attracted to u !! if i really dont have the chance...can u pls let me noe ?!?! dont keep me in the dark and let me pin hopes on us getting together...the longer u delay the deeper i will be hurt unless u are wiiling to accept me la...well maybe when penguins can fly ?!?! haiiz...!!!

[moody]
*pls forgive me !! it's really not me !!

IM SAD !!! sch sucks today !! it suck !! it really do !! went sch only hair kena caught liao but this one small case la..i wont cut de !! didnt got much chanc to talk to her leh..last 2 period social studies while waiting for sim to ocme i took the chance to talk to he rbut she seem to be cold towards me !! she seem to be angry at something..she seem to be avoiding me !! WHY ?!?! she must have know something !! well..got to noe that she was having headache..went to concern she also ignore me !! haiiz...!! after maths hor..tolong paul lee to tong bang us to white sand an was scolded by someone that i was creating noise pollution...didnt noe what got onto me but i shouted back...i dunno why i canot tahan her today..other days i can...i always am..always giving in to her but today i just dunno why i cant !! met jerry at 21 bus stop...well...got to know smthing...made me ponder over it until i miss my stop. !! i forgot to alight loh..!! it's like...huh ??!!? reach my bust stop le ar ?!?!? just couldnt control my tears frm flowing down..haiiz..useless me !!

[crybaby]
*why why why ?!?! why must u go against me ?!?!

aaarrgghhh...looking at the photos we took together agin...smile on my face automaitcally will come out de..but it also make me miss her more !!! hmm...come to think of it..actually hor..abit regret leh..coz hor..nv seize my chance..only got one photo me and her very close only...the rest was like..there is a gap between us..made myself feel so extra..!! talking abt extra i wonder if i really am extra in the pic ?!?! haiiz..to any others..i dont mind but a slong as she dont fine me extra.i dont give a damn about what other thinks !! hope she doesnt !! i want to take photo with her again !!! wonder when will it be our next photo taking seesion...wonder when will it be just u and me standing in front of the machine and taking photo with no one else but us !! guess there is still a long way to go...haiiz !!

[wastedleh]
*when can i step into pretty in tokyo with u alone..just the two of us..when ??

im bored !! doing physics now..realised only got 9 qns..haha !! now stop at 6..time to take a break !! blez !! lazy leh me..haha !! although tml can see her le..but im still wondering what she is doing now ? is she fine ? is she studying ? is she stress ? does she need help ? im willing to help if i can..!! does she need someone there to remind her to take care of herself ? if she ever need one..im willing to do so without any complaints !! hmm...just sms-ed her...dont think she will reply la..most probably still doing work..well..hope im not disturbing her...!!

[alwayslovesick]
*im willing to do anything...just for you !!!

hohoho !! finally back le..so tired !! went town to play counter strike..play like shiit..but still not bad la..haha !! went to play pool after that..play like shiit also...last min den got back my form...but have to go liao..coz scared later not enuff to pay !! budget !!! haha...!! went back after that..xinwei and keegan they all wanna act cute..walked diff way to mrt frm us...den in the end we board the train le..reach kallang le den they call us and told us they were waiting for us in town..haha !! serve them right...who ask them so childish...walk together dont wan..walk seperately..haha !! so tiring..!! eyes look at com so long very pain...must take a rest liao !! anyway im missing her so much..whenever i die hor..in counter strike la..will start to miss her..den type some confidential msg...haha...only john know..!! after cs...wanted to sms her..ask wad she doing..but she confirm wont reply de..coz for the past few days she keep going out ma..den these few days sure chiong homework de..just wanted to know how is she doing...flipped my fone..type the msg i wanna send her...but never send...haiiz..dunnno why also..maybe dont wanna disturb her study ba...or maybe i noe she wun reply so i dont wan to sms so i wont be sad when she dont reply..maybe maybe maybe !!! for now i can only maybe...dont know what she thinking also..!! well manage to inform her tml social studies is open book..she replied quite slow..so i guess she studying ba..hope she is doing fine !! hope she dont stres herself out too much !! last of all...gd luck to all those who took o level chinese coz tml will be the release of the results..dont cry k !! haha..all the best..!!

just for YOU : if u ever need a shoulder to cry on..someone to talk to if u are not satisfied with your results..dont forget that i will always be there for you..my door for you is 24 hrs..free of charge !! if u ever need anything...even if it is venting out your anger..im always available !! do remember..im always there and i always will...all the best !! i believe u will achieve wonderful grades..have some faith and confidence !! gambatte...!!

[sotired]
*my door for u is always open...

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[madboy]
*do i ever stand a chance ?

this msg is for her fren :

im not sure whether u will still come my blog la..last time got one period we quite close that time..u always got come de !! but now i dunno..anyway if u ever come across my blog..hope u read this k..no offence de !!

hmm...i dunno how to start also..well..if i got where say wrong hor..dont be offended k coz im just telling u how i feel loh !! really no offence de !! hope u understand..!! erm..got this feeling u dont like seeing me and her being close..everytime when im near her..u will sort of like not happy about it..and always thinking ways to let me not see her...always helping her or asking her to avoid me..dunno la..not very sure also..used to ask u for help...now i never le..coz i want to depend on myself !! i noe she dont like people talking abt me in front of her..i noe i noe..so i told myself..i cant depend on others i need to depend on myself..girl is i like de not my frenz so if i want her to accept me i need to depend on myself and not help of my frenz !! sometimes we might have little misunderstandings..but i have never hold grudges against u..even if i have i one two day will forget le !! i have always treated u well with the bottom of my heart but sometimes u like..sort of being abit sarcastic..abit la..sometimes hor we are just concern about u...we really are but u seem to think that we like to criticise u !! we dont..!! we are sincere in helping u..sometimes i talk mabe nv go thru my brain la..but i mean no harm..i have no intention !! sometiems u talk also made me fed up with u..but in the end..i still bu zhi bu jue forgive u !! i dont know why also..just feel like it !! i really appreciate u help me in the past..and im sorry if i caused u and her frenship to have any problems..with my greatest apology..i say sorry to u !! now i want to depend on myself...u dont have to help le..all u have to do..as part of being my fren..u shld support me..not physically but moraly..u dont have to do anything to help me get closer to her..i just hope u can give me ur support and blessing...all i want frm a fren like u..is to support me and not pull me down further...!!let me give u a example what im trying to say here !! e.g...im already alone in this deep hole..now..im seeking help frm her to help pull me up..but instead of helping her to pull me up..u are pulling her away frm me..leaving me in this hole alone !! u get it ma ?!? here im not trying to say u are the dunno what in my tooth..im not trying to say u keep sabo-ing me but sometimes that u do...maybe u dont realise la..really hai dao wo loh !! maybe u dont know la..but it really do !! i dont blame u also...coz u dunno what is happening here ma !! dont misunderstood leh..i noe u very understanding de..noe what im trying to say here..i noe u are her fren..i noe u are protecting her..i noe u want her to find someone good..someone worth she being with..i might bot be that perfect but why cant u give me a chance to prove to u that i can take gd care of ur fren too ?!? i noe u meant well...i noe u dont wan her to get cheated..but to u am i someone who will do that to her ?!!? i noe u are doing your part as a fren..but give me some freedom to show her my love can ?!?! i really really love her..i nv love someone as much before..!! pls grant me this chance...

i noe maybe all this decision might not be yours..it might be hers..if it really is..den im sorry again...but this is just how i feel...hope u will noe lohz...i dont like keeping it inside my heart coz i will feel uneasy !! if it really is her decision..haiiz..i dunno do what le !! im sure there is some secret between you two ba...although very curious to noe..but...if not fang bian..if she dont wan me to noe..nvm lohz..i will respect her decision !! whatever it is..i hope you will be reading this and i hope u understand what im trying to say to u..u can come and find me and talk to me personally about this issue i dont mind...i hope u get the msg..and not the wrong person..well...dont worry...it definitely will be a confidential conversation !! hope u understand..take care !!

aarrgghh...im bored !! sort of hate holiday now..especially when we still have to prepare for the upcoming big examination..!! holiday hor..canot get to see my frenz..canot get to see her...den want to go out..also canot coz need to study..no money also !! si bei siian leh..den hor..sometimes i feel abit left out by frenz also..coz they have stead to pei..they will nv be lonely..not like me..steadless but waiting la...haha..not say lonely la..but..how to say...it's like they got someone there for them permanetly loh..i dont have..siian !! waiting for her...!! they bored hor..just have picked up their fone..sms their stead..their stead die die also will sms with them...or maybe call their stead go out la...all these...me hor..frenz keep entertaining to stead..den dont wan me liao...heheee !! weiiz...ho pang yao..hinting u all liao leh...blez !! nvm la...i tahan...i ren...very soon...i will be *ahem de...i hope so...haha !! anyway hor..if im given a choice..i would prefer living in dreams leh...coz hor in dreams..there is only me and her..just the two of us...holding hands..smiling at each other...and living happily ever after !! so sweet loh !! haha..but only in dreams only la...!! canot think so much...later hor...kena reject will fall deeper...true right ? haha..sometimes hor...i think alot de leh..some small thing hor..i can think until very far..highly over-sensitive wan...haha !! very funny de..sometimes i tell my fren these and that...den they will say...nth what...u think too much le la..haha !! den i think...hmm...ya...make sense..haha !! alot of people have been asking me to jia you..telling me sure can de...must have confidence...thanks you very much..but hor now the thing is not i dont wan to jia you not i dont have confidence...but i think i roughly noe where i stand in her heart ba !! to me..it's always better to think on the negative side..den hor if the result come out is positive..den sure happy liao siao de ma...rather den being too confident..den result come out negative...wa..jump off building arh ?!!? haha...not my style...!! think i mad liao...u noe hor..i keep looking at the photo we took together leh..will not get sick and tired looking at it...find it so sweet..haha !! i mean everybody la...not only her...everybody looks so sweet in the photo...ESPECIALLY her...haha !!! i even manage to send the pic into my fone..although quite blur la..but still very nice !!! now nv loook at photo liao...keep looking at my fone..blez !!

[seriouslovesick]
*missing you like never before...

bla bla bla...bark bark bark...my fren told me someone wrote abt me in some dirty old blog..my fren told me abt the details..well...all i can say is....erm...what can i say ?!!? haha...bla bla bla...bark bark bark...true frenz here true frenz there...not ur frenz here not ur frenz there...wadever shiit...so what i call u names ? not happy ar ? too bad lo...dont act forgiving la...wish me here wish me there...il just take that a dog is barking...say want forget this and that...sai !! hypocrite ?!?! well...who knows if u are ?!? only u yourself know...u deny deny deny we all also lan lan...bark bark bark...bla bla bla...oh mine..why am i getting so angry...waste of time...waste of youth...glad me got smthing to look forward...what risk here risk there...mai act pro la...piece of shiit..anyway who the hell bother if u tag not...even if u tag we also dunno...who knows...u might be the anonymous..!! shld go scold my fren liao..why tell me all these stupid shiit..make me frown more..more wrinkles...siian..must go remind my fren anything that has got to do with her...count me out...bla bla bla..bark bark bark...frenz of mine might not be as 'much' as u do...but so what...haha...i dont make frenz with dogs and cats on the road...feeling angry reading this ?!!? dont read la..there is a X button on the top right...click on it...u will be out of this place...GET LOST !!! told u u are not welcome here..dunno why so thick skin still come back my blog...haiiz...bo bian la..u thick skin i also canot do anything...not my face also...up to u la...bla bla bla...bark bark bark

[beiteuygina]
*which hse dog is barking ar ?!!?

finally got to use internet again..my com infected with dunno what popup..manage to quarantine it...den can use liao !! hmm...wanted to blog yesterday de..but today com den ok...hope i wun forget what i wann say yesterday coz yesterday can be consider as the golden age of my life...haha !! well..yesterday met herat pasir ris mrt..den went bugis together to meet her fren..did some casual talking on the way...reach orchard in half and hr ba...went taka cold storage to meet some fren..felt so extra..coz all girls !!! tot geraldine would be there so i wun feel left out..but she wasnt !! haha...nvm la..did some shopping with those japs..the way they spend money hor...like we drink water like that..haha !! finally got meet jery and asayo..at cineleisure..den we went pretty in tokyo to take pictures...process was fun...but past fast...but overall was great !! will keep those neoprints forever de...handle with care !!! next we went back to hotel..den met up with chung hong at the hotel...they went up to change to bath and dunno do what...so long...so me and chung hong decided to go buy smthing for asayo...although last min..but sgot the heart can le...sincerity counts..lol !! went to buy a watch with fruits attached...bought liao..sat at the hotel sofa..den we start to think...can fit asayo hand not..if canot how ?!?! haha..alot of stupid idea..chung hong said the perfume someone sprayed was nice..den i told him i just farted..haha !! so funny !! 1 hr plus later..they came down le..finally !! asayo in her jap traditional dress...so nice !! den we tok photo together...and u noe what ?!!? smthing very strange happen !! dont tell u !!!! haha...only chung hong me , john and and a girl noe...blez !! it's a secret..all fated de la...u all noe liao will also find it strange...didnt realise got smthing like this until we were looking thru the fotos...haha !! well..left the hotel to pasir ris..to meet john..walked to mrt with chung hong and her...didnt really tok to them..mayb coz of her presence...didnt really tok much..but smthing happened at the mrt which made me damn bloody fed up..someone just put words into my mouth loh !! didnt want to argue back...coz i noe it's pointless..so i just kept my mouth shut..haiiz..very sad loh !!

next...was at the airport with john and chung hong...andrei joined us for a while...walked here and there waiting for the arrival of the japs...manage to meet up with jerry first...minute later...japs were here..went over to tok to them...dunno why suddenly dont feel like letting asayo go...confirm will miss her de..!! but she very funny...she doesnt remember me by my name..she remembe rme by takeshi ( jing chen wu ) haha...so funny lo !! she see me only..takeshi here takeshi there...cute sia !! they took very long to check in at the dunno what thing la..haha..she was out...and we took photo..stood next to her leh..haha honoured !! after the picture hor..she burst into tears..felt like crying...but not on the outside.on the inside...miss her so much all of a sudden !! asayo...i miss u !!! do come back if u can...i go japan will find u de !! haha...!! anyway...almost all the japs cried..coral students also cried...haiyo...dont sad la ...yu guo tian qing...haha dont think so much...at least u all made new frenz...at least u live meaningfully liao ma..next time if u feel like committing suicide...think again..is there nth in this world that will make u stay ? den u think of ur jap frenz...den wun wan to die liao...haha crap hor !!!! anyway...no matter cry until how jia lat..they still have to go ..ji an shun bian la...heehee !! after giving a hug to lynn...me john and chung hong walked off le...was looking thru at the photos we have taken for the day...recalling happy memories that tok place in the afternoon...everything was so sweet and pleasant !!

msg to asayo : hey..guess now back in japan le ba..noe u dont get to see this msg..but just write it out la...haha...i hope u enjoyed ur stay in singapore although i not ur host la..haha !! although nv really tok much or go out together...but feel that we can be very gd frenz de...just that...just that...fact is u have to go back to japan..anyway...what's important is to have happy memories in sg...all of us have happy memories...well die also wun forget !! and also..i felt that it's a bit wasted that u have to leave yesterday if not sure bring u go see firework...or enjoyed sg nationl day parade..wasted !! me will write snail mail to u also de..dont worry !! forever frenz !! last of all...all the best to u k..study hard in japan and come back here if u can..take vry gd care of yourself...stay cute and funky...although u abit blur blur...but thats what makes u special ma...haha !! hope u will remember me also...hope u like the watch me and chung hong bought for u...hope will remembeer takeshi...hope u will remember the picture of me in my ezlink which makes u go laughing away when u see...hope to see u again !! thanks for being my fren...domo arigato gozaimasu !! take care my drer fren !! i miss u...

before i end this post...i recalled smthing...smthing that med me very sad...pondering whether is true or whether is a joke..on the way back to pasir ris..she said that i was extra in the photo...dunno if she joking anot la..but i juz wanna say...anybody in this world can say me..i dont mind...it will go in frm my left ear and leave at the right...but..whatever thing u say...it will stuck in my brain forvever...forever and ever !! anything that comes out frm ur mouth means alot to me..even it's just a simple hello...!! i dont know if u enjoyed ur day yesterday...u might not enjoyed it coz i was there...i dunno la..maybe i was over-sensitve as i always am towards u...!! but all i noe is...yesterday i really enjoyed myself !! i really really do...i never am this happy before..even going out with my chiongster frenz also canot compared to few hrs of yesterday...im glad u agree to let me go with u all...im glad u dont mind me being with u all..im glad u wasnt angry with me for insisitng to wait for u at the mrt station...im glad u laugh at my jokes..im glad u made my day...im glad to spent a day with u...im glad u are my fren...im glad for u are everything i need to carry on living in this world...im glad u are willing to take photos with me...im glag u allowed me to stand beside u...im glad...im glad...im glad that i didnt made a wasted trip yesterday...im glad u took the iniiative to talk to me...im glad u ask for my opinion..im glad u asked if i wanna eat...im glad u concern abt my stomach knowing that i had not had my lunch...im glad u talked to me when the japs were shopping...im glad u told me to follow u when u were going upstairs..im glad u were involve in my topics...im glad u asked me along when u were going to meet jerry...im glad u treat me well yesterday...im glad to see u smile yesterday...im glad that u went home safely yesterday...im glad we took picture together...im glad i had such a wonderful day with u..im glad u consider me as your fren...im glad u joke with me...im glad u teased me...im glad u told me u will be late...im glad we talked alot...im glad everything went smoothly yesterday..im glad i noe u...im glad i carried the plastic bag for u while u were cutting those photos..im glad u design me with the neoprint machine...im glad im not left out by u...im glad i was wrong that i will be left out..im glad i opened the door for u...I AM GLAD !!! but everything would be much better...if u would accept me...i really hope u would give me a chance to prove that i will make u the happiest and most fortunate woman in the world...give me a chance to prove my love for u...give me a chance to prove to others that i deserve u...just ONE chance...just ONE will do...

[terriblylovesick]
*the day i will stop missing u...is the day im dead...

i realised smthing...i realised that i cant live without her..i realised that life will be incomplete without her...the minute she is out of my sight..i would miss her like i nv see her for decades !! after she alight yesterday...im already missing her as if..as if...yrs never see her..den feel like picking up fone to call her to meet her !! but i didnt..coz i know someone will spoil my plan..haiiz !!

[goingcrazy]
*where did i offend u ? why must u do this to me ?

many things have happen recently..dunno where and which to start..well maybe i shall start off abt my tag board stuff !! hmm..got this person..tag at my board saying things abt me..i dont blame u..coz u are siding HER ma..i mean...those that side me..will stand by me and those that side HER will stand by her..this kind of thing i expected le..it's only sooner or later..but if i tag back and scold u..i dont think it will stop...coz u are just being childish..why get myself involve and get childish too..and whether the dream of my girl..deserve me or not..is not up to u to decide unless u her father la..it's up to her..even if she dont accept me..at least it's her decision i respect it..somemore..the person i break with is not u..SHE nv even come my tag board and bark..but why u ? she can accept the fact i broke off with her...accept the fact that i like my dream girl..can accept FACTS..but why cant u..u are not even involve loh..why come here and bark..?!! i dont know whether u got play those beng kind wan not ...but i already wash hand le..although wash le..but i can say one thing loh..if u still not happy with me..for dunno whatever reason...i got only 3 words for u..wu ji lai !! i wont fight or what la..just come talk face to face la..if u got guts..why tag liao dont put your name...tag here tag there waste of time..not happy can talk slowly..solve everything..we might not need to be frenz..just solve ur unhappiness can le...if u die die also want to play black..den u can come try lohz...

this is for HER...if u stil got come back to my blog...i noe it's not ur fault..i nv say it was..but u also cant say its not ur fault TOTALLY..ur fren come here and tag..u also have a part...partly ur fault also..dont u think so ? if u nv tell ur fren these and that...or maybe u told ur fren an imcomplete story...or maybe ur frenz doesnt noe my story...will ur fren come here and tag those nonsense...u get it ? im not trying to put blame on u..just wanna let u noe..what u are doing..or what ur frenz are doing...will make u lose frenz..those that are close to u might not leave u...but u will nv noe...gradually...some of ur frenz will tend to leave u without u knowing...well..i say all these to u doesnt mean i forgive u le..as what mingming told u..frm today...till the day i die..i will never forgive u !! so stop sms-ing me or what...i will nv reply..u will be doing me a very great favour by leaving me alone..i will be very grateful !!

well...thats all i got to say...the one who tag at my board...i said what i want to say...if u not happy...can find me..it's fine with me...if u continue tagging...i also canot do anything..but it will only show that u are childish and u will spoil ur fren (HER) reputation coz people will know SHE got such a childish fren..last of all..just to remind u...wu ji lai...

[stayingcalm]
*handling things like nv before...not used to it..haha !!

finally got to use internet le..dont know got what stupiid problem..my dad just helped me fixed..but can see he quite angry !! anyway..just got back frm west plaza not long..went to play basketball to relieve stress..not studies de stress...but another stress la..u all shld noe..feeling very sad over it !! hope my bball frenz can cheer me up..!! played quite badly at first..but slowly play better..was satisfied with how i play loh..didnt make a wasted trip down to the end of pasir ris !! very happy liao..haha !! made some beautiful shots and lay-ups..played 5 0n 5 for last half hr..huoying one team !! haha..except zhi xiang...poor him !! but xiang hor has improved alot le..not bad not bad..keep it up !!

i was expecting her call..cause she was supposed to call me and confirm what time we meet tml..waited till 8+ and i got worried..wondering if she forgot about it..in the end she got call la..but i nv hear coz i was playing bball ma..so wasted !! she sms me also..but i still call her back...haha..die die also want to hear her voice den i happy !! she sounded sleepy..asked if she was sleeping but she say no !! sounded so tired..dunno la..haiiz !! asked her to meet me earlier to go buy present for asayo..she cant make it..haiiz !! chung hong also another ass..told me going going...although he really is going la..but he 4 plus den come..we 1 meet le leh..leave me alone..win liao loh !! actually planned to talk long long de..but she sounded so damn tired loh..dunno real not..haiiz..so hang up loh !!

tml hor..going out with jerry,asayo,lingmiin,doreen and chung hong to orchard..last day the jap students will be here le..after tml..they going back le..hope asayo will remember me..realise that she very friendly and cute !! hmm...got this bad feeling that i will be left out tml..very strong feeling..coz hor..jerry will be with asayo...she will be with doreen..den me leh ?!!? chung hong is suppose to be with me...but 4 onwards la..den frm 1 to 4 leh !?! will i be left out ?!?! recently hor...she had not been replying to my msg leh..haiiz dunno why !! is she avoiding me ?!?! does she noe the truth ?! is she trying to stop friendship between us to get closer ?!?! pray hard it's not !!! dont noe what she busy with also...seem so tired everyday..it's so difficult to noe what she is thinking...i tried ways and ways to find out what she think..but i still cant...everytime i come to a conclusion...there will always be a new clue !! im really very sad over this..have not been studying for past 2 days which i planned to...spent time missing her..spent time pulling myself together...spent time wiping off my tears...!! i dont noe why im thinking all this..maybe im over-sensitive...maybe im thinking too much..maybe i love her too much...or put it in a simplier way..im MISSING her too much !!!

[lovesick] ` like never before
*ill never break your heart..please give me a chance !!

if given a choice..i would prefer living in dream than in reality becoz in dreams..it's always me and her !! just me and her..no one else !! the time we had in my dreams were so sweet and everlasting...nv felt like stopping but my stupiid alarm clock always wake me up for sch !! dreams are fake while reality is real but so long as one is happy..who cares ?!!? furthermore..i can have the type of dreams i want...but reality is all there..arranged for u..u cant change or destroy it !! anyway..now alone at home..editing my blog now..hope it will be nice !! give feedback at the talk cock corner k..thanks !!

[lovesick]
*when will we ever be together

tears kept flowing down the moment i think of her !! i miss her like crazy..it just cant stop !! i wondered..after doing so much for her..was i ever allowed to place one of my foot in her heart..am i allowed to hide in one small corner of her heart...am i allowed to help mend her heart if it's broken ?!?! am i even allowed to share the burdens she has ?!!? indeed i did cried for her..am i useless..silly or foolish ?!? coz i cried for someone who has not even loved me..i guess..!! well..my fren said boys seldom cry for girls..but i think it is nth wrong..it's just that boys usually dont show it out only..guys usually cry in the heart not on the outside !! but me..dunno why la..both inside and outside also have !! haiiz..felt so helpless..

[seriouslovesick]
*will i go mad one day ? im missing her like never before..

wa lao...buey tahan leh..jacky and gilbert playing ps2 in my room now !! gilbert f***ing kao bei !! feel like smacking him..i will...i will !! haha..dont tell him !! hmm...nv study at all today..no mood !! all my mood is spent on missing her..!! today sch half day only..actually dont wan go de..coz got not much chance to see her..but went in the end..why ?!!?! coz hor..can see her 5 min ma..see her 5 min i also happy !! crazy hor..?!!? go sch 2 hr..see her 5 min happy liao !! yup im really crazy over her !! luckily manage to talk to her for a while...if not really is a wasted trip !! haha !! went to sch and sat near the jap girl..feel that she very friendly..told her i jing chen wu !! haha..so funny..she very cute la !! keep looking at her secretly..hehee..finally she walked over telling asayo she going hall le..den manage to tok to her..blez !! the parade was boring like hell...but the tkd not bad la..attract my attention..the rest was like...sleeping lo !! well..planned to sneak into hall to see her de..but was chased out of sch my teachers..kaoz..scared what..as if got terrorist..sai wan leh !! didnt wan to go home so early..so went to pay bball outside sch..30 min only la..den went white sand with xw le !! saw alot people there..the whole grp of renzhe plus wei rong and hong ru..saw zhiyong weijie kavin and kwok hung also !! dunno whcih idiot throw the plank down almost hit me..lucky i siam fast..xw manage to chop the plank into pieces but no one believe !! haha...poor xw have to go 2nd floor to demo to wei rong..but the plank too small liao !! went back with hou meng..saw xiang on the way to interhange..talk talk...den go back le !! hou meng come my hse play..but went his hse 1st to take counter strike cd..msg john on the way..ask if they all release le not..it's ard 12 plus le hor..they still have a long way to go !! what the fish ?!?! well..think hou meng had a fun time here ba..oh ya..she call me leh !!! wa shocking sia..haha !! coz morning i call her ma..left smthing in sch want her to pass to me..but she nv bring fone to sch..i guess..so she called me when she reach home..haha !! sms a while with her..and will be calling her tonite !! yyyiipppeee...!! time pls fly faster..!! i wanna call her tonight !! blez !! wish me gd luck !!

[callinghertonight]
*4 days of holiday will make me more mad over u...i really miss u !!

u noe what..?!?! i feel like crying now..crying for someone who have not done anything for me..someone who has not gave me warmth and love..someone who doesnt appreciate all i have done..but why ?!!? i myself also dunno why..i suddenly miss her so much !! i really do !! just missing her is enuff to make tears roll down my cheeks loh !! i really miss u !! I DO I DO !!

[cryingboy]
*i fell into the hole alone..will she be down with me or pull me out with her ?!?!

aloha..!! just got back not long only..today sch was cool !! had japanese invasion..haha no la..got students frm japan come our sch..cultural exchange programme !! well..our class de..got one boy and girl..both not bad la..avg looking..but most imp is they very friendly !! sort of bully them abit..but not too much la !! told the girl i was jing chen wu !! told her ayumi hamasaki my girlfren..!! haha..!! so funny !! during recess..we played bball with 2 of the japs..!! haha..so many people wanted play...but me hor..is people invite me play de..haha why ?!!? coz all star ma..bo bian !! blez !! haha..!! didnt run much la..didnt wan to sweat alot..but hor only i score leh !! received a great pass frm john..turn ard..without hesitation..jumped up with little effort..release the ball as usual..ball went in smoothly like it always do..walked off confidently and proudly !! haha..!! made singapore proud leh..dont pray pray hor !! haha !! but all this hor...canot be compared to the last 20 min i had in class !! the happiest moment in my life !! had geo lesson..and we were suppose to divide ourselves in 2 big group and will be taught be 2 different teachers..was in the same grp as her !! didnt expect her to sit next to me..was happy but acted cool !! haha..!! xinwei is a cb coz he told me very squeezy and told me to move inner abit..haha but i knew he meant well !! wahahhaa..!! nvm la..forgive u la xinwei !! haha..!! was finding all sort of topic to talk to her..racking my brains to make her laugh..using up my brain juice just to tok to her..ask her qns even if noe the answers !! all i wanted was to hear her voice..!! well..achieve most of that..was very contented !! good time usually fly fast..20 mins is like 5 mins to me !! everything is so fast !! frm now on..im looking forward to every geo lesson..coz it's equivilant to looking forward to my happiness..looking forward to sitting with her.and looking forward to be close to her !! haha..I LOVE GEOGRAPHY !!!

[veryverycontented]
*how i wish everyday's lesson is geography !! i love geography !!

so happy..hear a news frm someone..gd news..!! canot say la..confidential..haha !! erm got to noe that she like my cd..cd that i burned for her..!! so happy..life is getting better and better especially after some jinx left my life..im getting happier and happier each day feeling more and more blessed !! i miss her !!!

yo yo yo !! today sch so fun !! haha..suppose to have physics test but hor the morning rehearsal for speech day took it away !! but postpone to tml..haha sama sama la !! went back for chinese..so boring..watch di xia tie..miss her so much !! after chi..had chem in class..didnt even bother to listen to him tock cock loh !! he ask me and john they all to shut up and i still ask WHY as if im not in wrong..haha !! didnt mean it to be a joke but got people laugh..haha !! after that was melvin's lesson..think he damn du lan with our class..haha !! we keep asking why loh..even for the simplest thing we ask why..den we keep toking abt mariane choong which he told us not to read coz some of the fatcs not true..but we keep saying..mariane choong say this mariane choong say that..haha !! den after sch also..hlaf the class go for speech day and cg le ma..den hor..got the half hor..suppose to go.but out of the hlaf..3/4 nv go..including me la..haha den he du lan he cancel the lesson and left !! so funny loh !! we were at the 2nd level..tot he would saw us..but we squatted down..haha !! had eng after recess...found out tracy was my ho pang yao..haha !! but keep threatening with my work...blez !! for the sake of her..let her threaten nvm la..worth it !! haha..we were playing the game of interviewing..interviewed her..wasnt fun at all..but toking to her was !! tracy asked winna who she interviewed..she said me..she ask wad would i like to change..i said my look..and what would i do if i achieve that..den someone said..woo the girl of his dream...suddenly hor..the class so quiet loh..i dont even dare look at her...so pai seh !! think the whole class noe la..haha keep quiet only..thanks arh !! assembly was boring like hell..felt asleep but saliva came flowing out..haha !! had social studies..sat close to her and chatted..!! waited for her after sch..but they so late..so left with terence and chung hong they all first !! recalling the speech day performance by tkd..especially keegan !! think of it i wanna laugh !! he suppose to kick 4 planks..arrange in 360 degrees la..kicked the 1st,2nd and 3rd by scolding LAM PA before kicking..haha !! missed the 4th one..coz i think giddy le la..prepare himself again by scolding CB den LP again..haha..finish with a cool stance..lol !! not bad la shorty..!! oh ya..this one canot be left out..we were toking abt one physics teacher..said that she can have a album of hers..with number hits called 'cher cher cher' and techno trance ' it takes 2 hand to clap' together with track3 name 'flexibility' and with a classical music called ' sometimes i really dont understand what u all are thinking' plus an exclusive bonus track of ' la laa LAA LAAAA' haha !! damn funny lo..u all might not get the joke here..but it's really very funny !! haha....

went to sch with new specs !! haha..expect alot of comments frm frenz but not very la..haha quite disappointed though !! anyway sch was fun today..!! started off with mother tongue..watched 'the others' !! so funny..doreen was afraid like hell loh..den when the most scary part..i just tapped her on the back and she scream !! nv did i expect..she cried !! OMG !! haha..went to console her..provide her with tissues..hao bu rong yi den stop her crying..den go back class hor..told her that i made her best fren cry..haha !! walked over to doreen's place..found out she cry AGAIN !?! what hell fish ?!!? haha..provide her with tissue again..spent 10 mins to stop her crying..den the class hor very fish de leh..keep teasing her abt the movie tingy..tryin to make her cry !! tolong la..i spent 15 mins leh..not easy task k..heehee !! during maths teacher nv come so had free period..tried toking to her but didnt !! cme hor..sat with jerry..tok alot la..haha confidential !! after recess was abit bored la..chem and physics !! but eng hor..my class was chaos loh !! tracy no free ma so nv come..no relief teacher also !! dunno why suddenly peizhen went haywire..went ard kissing people..first was xin wei...siao wan leh !! she aimed chang siang...den john and some of the rest was like pinnin him on the wall..the whole was shouting ' qing zui ! qing zui !! ' den i shouted..' shang chuang shang chuang !! ' so funny sia..but on 2nd tot..where got bed..so i edited ' shang zhuo shang zhuo !! ' haha !! damn kuku loh..!! suddenly hor peizhen aim me !! siao wan leh..told her i knew CHINESE KUNG FU !! haha..said ' bo cold leng ' (hokkien : impossible) in a slang..dunno why everybody luff..!! siao wan..so mad loh the class !! well had geo after sch..sat behind her coz carline went for appointment ma..increase the chance of toking to her !! heehee so happy..!! asked i look like ping guan not..with the specs..she said ya..the SPECS only..(-_-') !! haha..said ping guan zhen ren jun zi..fine fine !! blez !! next..pe hor..nv play much la..didnt want to spoil my new specs !! but hor before we started..we had difficulties clearing the court for girls..xw went to tok to them nicely but failed..bo bian..me go..raised my voice..alot people say frm behind looks like wanna fight liao..but in fact me toking quite nicely to them liao loh !! think ruin my hao nan ren image in front of her..hope she understand..haha !! well..pe half way went to comment on the girls game..tok alot of crap..well even though is crap but she laughed loh..haha !! after pe..got to realised she angry with someone..dunno what happen also..say bye to her but she ignore me..!! i noe she nv see my blog de but i just want to say that no matter what..if at times u feel sad or angry..dont forget i will always be there for u !! no matter midnight or morning..just for u..my service is 24 hrs !! might not be very close frenz with u but im willing to do anything for u !! i hope u are fine loh..although i dunno what happen but bi jing u all is frenz ma..so..ya..erm..dont think so much la..even if the whole world turn against u..i will still be on ur side standing strong with u !!

went to read some stranger's blog coz peiyi told me someone wrote abt me..wasted so much time reading..anyway last time liao..nvm liao !! realised that stranger got the ability to tok cock !! can be lawyer also..can make things frm black to white..hmmm..not bad..potential !! time prove me wrong ?!? haha..so what if it prove me wrong..i still hate u !! aiyah..this kind of thing i also noe..write in blog..act innocent..let people pity me..who dunno !! pui !! i can also ask john and keith..was i that bad ?!? confirm they say no la..why best frenz ma !! stupid..!! go conduct one survey la..tok cock only !! nv learn social studies arh..out of the sch population..only got one or two say u good only..but not majority leh !! sai !! god damn it..feel so childish arguing with her !! waste my damn bloody time quarrelling with a bitch !! tok abt her only spoil my mood...JESUS CRIES ?!?! think ah mi tuo fo better..cool me down !! haha..LOSER !! SCRAM !! EVERYONE NOE UR TRUE COLOURS !! STOP ACTING INNOCENT !! oh man..so childish..think i better stop !!

[ah mi tuo fo]
*time will prove u wrong bla bla bla..piece of shiit !! loser !!

zzzzzz...aloha..!! so tired !! just came back frm bear's bbq..si bei siian !! nth to do there so went to play bball and pull some ring..haha the ring there so short..can hang there sia !! but got my hand blistered in the end..hehee nvm la !!jaslin was there as well..talked and confided quite alot in her..must admit she yue da yue chio..more mature liao..very pretty now..!! haha..!! well..got to noe smthing frm one of my fren..u all dunno de !! after hearing what the person has told me..i suddenly felt so gullible..i was cheated for so long and yet i dunno..all those phrases like ' i will wait for u' , ' i still love u ' , ' i need u ' or ' i miss u ' all is SAI AND BULLSHIIT wan la !! this kind of nice words hor..when stead hor..say only..but when break..u see loh..very fast hor..the person will like another person liao..now den i realise how stupiid and foolish i was..initially i tot i was very bad..but in the end i found out the most wicked one isnt me..but her !! i got to noe she like someone else loh and got proof that she admitted it !! got one thing more absurd but it's a bit too personal so i prefer not to disclose..!! erm..anyway..was quite happy also...coz i finally got to noe her true colours..!! i dont noe what are her intentions for doing so..but all i noe is the more she do those kind of thngs (maybe to attract attention) the more i hate her !!

after finding out the 2 fresh piece of news..felt like crying not becoz i miss her..but becoz my feeling was being played for 6 mths..i suddenly realise that im so gullible..im so foolish..if i nv stead with her..all these wud not happn at all..so people who are hurt or suffered due to this incident ( excluding gy )..i say sorry to u all !!! pls forgive me...!!

anyway..ive made up my mind not to have any thing to do with her anymore..she want to die or what is her prb..she go her nan tian men i go mine nai he qiao..we 2 gu bu xiang qian !! frm now onwards..sunday morning 7.30am..i swear not to have any ties with her anymore..i will not forgive her even i die..i will take it that i dont have this fren at all..well got smthing for her..just remember that i will always be there for u when ur frenz found out the truth and leave u coz i wanna be the first to mock at u !!! LOSER...!!!

p.s this will be the last post abt that b***h..coz i dont wan so many unhappy memories inside my blog..

[pissedoff]
*ure just a low class shameless cheap b***h...

aloha !! finally got the chance to use com..!! si bei siian leh this morning..went sch for oral !! atrocious leh..went at 8 hor..12 den my turn leh..lao tian ye arh..haha !! well..did quite well for it..but dunno how the teacher think of it loh..!! didnt tok much to her today..wore the pouch she gave me to sch..walked up to her and told her i risked my life to bring the cd for her..well she return a smile and thats all..after that nv tok liao..hope she notice that i wore the pouch..haha delirately walked a few rounds in front of her..if she nv notice den i consider failure liao !! haha !! came back after having lunch with botak lim and terence at 201..so tiring..no one online also..sms her also nv reply..either she busy or she nv on her fone..nvm la..later den call her..coz i going bbq ma..den someone i dont like might be going..so in order to keep myself entertained..i plan to call her at nite loh..hope she is free !! anyway watched jue zhong hao nan ren..very nice but i fell asleep halfway..haha..woke up at the ending part..den rewind to see the middle part again..haha stupiid hor !! and also im burning 2 disc..one chi one eng..both very nice..hope to introduce to her..hope she will like it.. share another thing with u all..today hor..me,botak lim,terence and aaron walked to interchange ma..den very funny thing happen !! chang siang told me US will be doing flag day at white sand..so i was like..planning how to tease them when i saw them la..didnt saw them there la..but saw some other coralians there..tell u all what i do..we saw yi jia and xiaoni..so i was like going to take out my wallet..den she take her can hor..den i told her my wallet stuck la..canot take out..den walk in front abit..saw patricia..took out my wallet..she place the can in front again..i took out money..but instead of donating..i gave terence 5 dollar lying that i owe him money..haha !! den patricia expression was like..huh ?!?! what the hell ?!?! haha..so funny !! last of all hor..saw these sec 2 boys at the interchange.they were sitting down ma..so we walked over..looking at the can..den i told terence they all to donate..my hands went into my pocket as if i were looking for coins..but as they were abt to stand up and wait for us to donate..we walked away..haha !! so funny lohz..their expressions..haha !! u all must be there den can understand..after that hor..i swear nv to do flag day in my life !! haha..if not later all of them revenge..bad hor me..heehee !! but it's fun !!! blez !!! haha k need to go do some work le..at nite going bbq..ton somemore..!! also want to go miss her le..that's all folks !! c'ya.. [lovesick] *do u noe how imp u are to me ?